Stillborn: Still Loved

I found this poem yesterday while looking for a nice poem for The Parents of Stillborns.  I have people visit my blog who are searching for poems for parents of stillborn babies and about stillborn babies.  I thought this one was nice.   So many people can identify with this fully.   I hope it touches your heart God, Take This Child.... By Nancy Scott Sweet child whom we never really got to know, It’s hard for us to let you go. We waited and we wanted you. We had so many dreams for you. We think of smiles we'll never see. We think of events that will never be. There will be no first steps and no first teeth. There is only a void and our own grief. We planned to take you to places far and near. We yearned to keep you safe and free from fear. We hoped to show you much of your new world. We wanted to teach you as your life unfurled. It’s hard to understand why you, our baby, died. We feel so numb right now, many tears we’ve cried. We h...

Two months ago yesterday, my son Jake, went to Heaven after being born still.  His big brother Payton, his mimi and I drove out to the cemetery and released four balloons for him. Here are a few of my favorite pictures. My sweet Jake is so very special to everyone!   I can't wait for Jake's headstone to be placed there for him.   Payton all on his very own kissed his balloon before he let it fly to Heaven to see Jake. <3 He's so sweet and loves his baby brother so very much!  Payton saw this Spiderman balloon at the store and decided this is the one Jake needed from him... so that is what he got <3 After Payton sent Jake kisses, I thought his mommy should send him some too! Finally it was momma's turn to release the balloons I had chosen for Jake.  All of mommy's love floating to my angel in Heaven  This last picture is very beautiful to me... Jake's tiny grave is right below the center cross, just outside of the cemetery : )

January 22nd I started the hardest journey of my life. I woke up about 5:30am, after having the chills and what felt like a fever all night.  I kissed my husband goodbye, since he had to be at work at 6:30 that morning... went and sat on the couch and noticed that all wasn't right.  We had company over so I just tried relaxing on the couch since I had been placed on complete bed rest. About 8:15 or 8:30 I began noticing a sensation I hadn't before. My water had broken.  I called my mother and my husband and let them know I was going to the emergency room.  After that I told my company I had to leave, and they so kindly packed all of their things and drove me the 50+ miles to the closest hospital.       Upon arrival, my worst fears were confirmed... my water had broken at 21 weeks and the prognosis was not good.  The on call doctor told me I had two options, option a.) sit and wait for my body to go into labor or b.) be transferred ...