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Has it really been TWO whole years?

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Two years has passed since the morning I woke up, and sat down on my couch to find I was leaking fluid. Two years has passed since I told my company that I needed to go the emergency room and they drove me the 50 miles… Two years sometimes still feels like yesterday. I still remember the littlest of details as if this happened yesterday... I can remember laying there in that triage room while the nurses came in and told me that what I feared most, The fluid leaking  was amniotic fluid.   I remember being blind- sided by the on call doctor coming in, and asking me which hospital I wanted to be transported to, so that I could deliver Jacob early, since they were a Catholic hospital and wouldn’t induce labor.   I remember being terrified and extremely upset. I was all alone and my husband at the time was stuck on location in an oil field… I remember the nurse telling me that they didn’t know sometimes things like that happened…but they did and they were sorry. ...

Sunflowers

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Mommy Loves Her "Son"shines! After Jake passed away, Payton and I planted a little 4 foot row of sunflowers next to where he and my niece play in the yard. Today, the first thing I noticed when I came outside as that this one is blooming! What a way to make me smile bright and early! Thank you Lord, for such beautiful flowers to start my day off right. I sure do love those boys of mine!!! Have a Great Tuesday! I'm on the blog hop with Tesha today, please join us! :)