2 Months down... forever to go

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Two months ago today at 10:26pm, Jake would have been two months old. 

Two months ago I was dreading that moment when my sweet baby, whom I had carried joyfully inside me for close to 24 weeks would be born.  I was dreading the end. 

Two months ago I began this journey through never ending grief.

Today Jake's big brother, mimi and I will release balloons in his honor and imagine where they go.  We like to think that Jake plucks them out of the sky from Heaven. : )
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Not a day goes by that Jake isn't the first person I think of when I wake up and the last person I think about when I go to bed at night.  It's almost as if everyday when I wake up in the back of my mind I hope that this is all a really bad nightmare and I'll wake up and he'll be here safe and sound with me.  Sadly, everday my reality is still true... there's no waking up from this nightmare.  My sweet Jake is gone.  Soon I will blog about my experience of trying to plan Jake's funeral... I feel very compelled to do so. 



We miss our angel so very much!
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Happy 2 Month Angelversary baby boy.
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  1. AnonymousApril 10, 2012 at 9:10 PM

    Hugs and Prayers your way!!! Our babies are probably up there having so much fun!

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  2. JessicaApril 10, 2012 at 9:37 PM

    Thanks Cassie. I'm sure they are having all kinds of fun together !! <3

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