What I'm doing - 5 Months Later








Today, July 10,2012, marks the 5 month anniversary of my sweet Jacob Austin being born still.  I have been in my planner frame of mind for the past couple of weeks and for whatever reason have started trying to plan what I will do for Jacob's first birthday.
 
Yes, I know. February is SEVEN months away... but for some reason it made me feel better and kind of sad too at the same time. 
 
I have been on Pinterest looking at first birthday party ideas for boys.
 
I have Googled Angel birthdays.
 
Either way I look I have decided that the world is not prepared for parents having to think about their child's birthday in Heaven.
 
As I looked through party websites and such I saw plates for girls that said little angel, the boys say little rebel - that won't work. 
 
When you look up first birthdays, there are lots of cute photos for inspiration to take with your baby.  I can't do that.
 
I have decided I want to have Jacob, my sweet Angel baby a normal first birthday party.  The only thing normal though will be the cake and decorations.  My sweet baby won't be in attendance at his party.  These are some of the ideas I have found.
 
I am in love currently with blue elephants for his party!
 I really want Jacob to have a sweet First Birthday Party Hat to sit on the table with his little cake.  Oh how this brings tears to my eyes thinking about how he won't have pictures made wearing it and eating his cake. <3


I have also thought about having a Peter Rabbit Birthday.
This little rabbit cake has the bunny digging for carrots. :)
This would be the party hat that I'd get for a Peter Rabbit themed party.

Of course you know I love Rocking horses, after all Jake's headstone will be shaped like a rocking horse, so the thought did cross my mind to see what I could find party wise in Rocking horses.


As many things as I like, it's a good thing I have seven more months to finalize the details. It is so very hard to make decisions when it regards my precious angel baby.  I want everything to be just right, just as it would be if he were here with me to celebrate his birthday.

To see all of my ideas for Jacob's First Birthday visit my  Pinterest.

5 Months is a long time to be without Jacob, I can only imagine what these next seven months will be like leading up to his One Year Anniversary in Heaven.

Comments

  1. UnknownJuly 10, 2012 at 8:16 AM

    Your such a sweet mommy! Love the elephant hummmm but the peter rabbit is so cut to. :) Hugs my friend, I am glade you are finding some positive feeling in planning a party for Jake :)

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    1. JessicaJuly 10, 2012 at 8:29 AM

      Thank you Tesha. I love the elephants too! Big hugs back to you! :) I think if I didn't start finding some positive in all of this, I would be crazy. :) Hope you have a magnificent Tuesday my friend!!

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  2. Jenn @Treasuring Lifes BlessingsJuly 10, 2012 at 8:32 AM

    I too found it soothing to think about planning Noahs 1st birthday and now his 2nd. I did up a 3D Noah's ark cake and everything for his birthday last year (which is posted on my blog, then ended up having Olivia on his bday so we didn't get to celebrate like I had planned). You are right, there should be something out there for babyloss families celebrating their little ones birthdays. (((hugs)))

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    1. JessicaJuly 10, 2012 at 8:41 AM

      I love the Noah's Ark theme for Noah. I will have to come see his party on your blog. I think that is so very neat that your children share a birthday. :) I know that Miss Olivia was a welcome interruption to Noah's planned birthday celebration. Maybe one day if enough people search for and request and/or come up with things for the children in Heaven's birthdays someone will take notice.

      ((Big Hugs))

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  3. The KimmelsJuly 10, 2012 at 8:41 AM

    I'm glad you decided to have a party for your little guy. Whatever you decide to do in the end will be perfect. The little Peter Rabbit stuff is super cute, although I am biased because our son has Peter Rabbit on his headstone :) For his birthday we invited our immediate family and took balloons and cupcakes to his grave. We let the balloons go with little notes attached. I had also written a letter that I read (and bawled my head off through). Hugs to you as you start to prepare for that birthday. As it gets closer, it will be hard, but just remember that you will make it through!! <3

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    1. JessicaJuly 10, 2012 at 8:46 AM

      I very much hope for the perfect party for my precious son, even though I know he will have the best party ever in Heaven and won't worry about what we do here on earth for him. :) I love Peter Rabbit too, it is very much "babyish". I don't mind your bias at all. I love the idea of taking cupcakes to your son's graveside and balloons with messages. I am more than sure it was ok to bawl while reading him the letter you wrote. I more than likely would do the same. In February, I am not planning on having many people out for his birthday celebration, just close family and maybe my dearest friends. Thank you for the encouragement and reminder that no matter how hard of a time I have leading up to his first birthday and his birthday I will make it through.

      Hugs to you! <3

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  4. KristyJuly 10, 2012 at 9:31 AM

    LOVE the blue elephants!

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  5. LeslieJuly 10, 2012 at 5:31 PM

    So many cute party ideas!! I like them all!! I am so glad it is helping you to plan his party!! I look forward to hearing more about your plans. Thinking of you!

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    1. JessicaJuly 10, 2012 at 6:36 PM

      Thank you Leslie! I am looking forward to doing more planning in the next couple of months. :) thanks for all the good thoughts.

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  6. AnonymousJuly 10, 2012 at 7:15 PM

    Love all party ideas!!! Loving you on your babies special day today!!

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    1. JessicaJuly 10, 2012 at 7:18 PM

      Thank you Amber for the love. :) I'm sure Jake and Jack had a great day together!

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