Stillborn: Still Loved

A couple of days ago my mother and I bought Jake his first little Christmas tree.  Yesterday, we went shopping at Hobby Lobby for the ornaments that would accompany the sweet baby's first Christmas ornament I purchased a couple of months ago. I picked out a snowflake garland, little dinosaurs, ,pink, green,orange and blue ornaments as well as some silver ones... and a little snowman tree topper. To finish off his tree I picked out a tiny tree skirt for the bottom.  I have so much blogging to catch up on in the next couple of weeks... I got so busy trying to graduate college... I haven't had to time to visit with all of my bloggy mom friends.    Jake's First Tree Christmas 2012             The Lord is near to all who call upon him Psalm 145:18   My support group gave me the beautiful angel ornament  above at our Walk to Remember this year.   Jake's Snowman tree topper ...

It's approaching Thanksgiving, and many people whom I am friends with on Facebook are posting things they are thankful for everyday as statuses.  This gave me the idea to post here, what moments I am thankful for to have had with Jacob, or things I'm thankful for now, while grieving.     Today I am thankful for the Five Months 3 Weeks and 5 Days I held Jake close to my heart and for the two sacred times I held him in my arms outside my body.   I am thankful for the wonderful Nursing staff and doctors who worked tirelessly to keep Jake and I comfortable in the 21 days  I was hospitalized.   I am incredibly thankful for my supportive family who has shown me continuous love since Jake passed away.   I am thankful for the new gentleman the Lord has placed in my life who is not afraid to acknowledge Jake's life and death and his significance in my life.  He willingly listens when I am sad, and looks at pictures of my sweet ba...

Hi everyone! Hope you have had a great early part of your week!  I'm posting several days of capture your grief in one blog.  There are several missing, because I just don't have anything that applies to those days... such as a shrine or altar... although I love Jake.. I don't have an altar for him.  Also, I really haven't gotten into any projects yet, nor have I become involved with any charity organizations.   Much love to you all!

I think I mixed up the day numbers... but needless to say here are pictures of my supportive family, scents and community      

  October 10th - Jake has now been in Heaven 8 whole months.   This past week has been hard for me.   Saturday the 6th, my family and I attended our first Walk to Remember.  The emotion was overwhelming... My mother and I spent most of the day Thursday and Friday attempting to make shirts to wear to the event.  We wanted to order professional shirts, but  procrastinated a little too long. :)  Friday while at Hobby Lobby shopping for supplies, I thought I would look at Christmas decorations.  That was a bad idea, I found the sweetest Baby's First Christmas stocking holder.  It was beautifully silver plated, and had the words written in baby blue.  Needless to say, I was a ball of tears in the  middle of the aisle.  I'm not ready for holidays without my baby, and seeing that on the weekend I was supposed to be honoring him, was just hard.  I managed to pull through and in the end just had my wonderfully...

Life has gotten in the way lately of my blogging.    Day 8 : Jewelry   I really don't have any specific jewelry for Jacob yet.  These are some of the necklaces I would like:     I want a little charm like this too:        So, with that being said, here is my photo for Day 9 . It is a special place on my dresser with pictures of both of my precious sons and the elephant that decorated an arrangement at Jake's funeral.      Day 10 : A Symbol   I Love seeing Jake's name places.. here are a few...