October 10th - Jake has now been in Heaven 8 whole months.
This past week has been hard for me.
Saturday the 6th, my family and I attended our first Walk to Remember.
The emotion was overwhelming...
My mother and I spent most of the day Thursday and Friday attempting to make shirts to wear to the event. We wanted to order professional shirts, but procrastinated a little too long. :) Friday while at Hobby Lobby shopping for supplies, I thought I would look at Christmas decorations. That was a bad idea, I found the sweetest Baby's First Christmas stocking holder. It was beautifully silver plated, and had the words written in baby blue. Needless to say, I was a ball of tears in the middle of the aisle. I'm not ready for holidays without my baby, and seeing that on the weekend I was supposed to be honoring him, was just hard. I managed to pull through and in the end just had my wonderfully talented sister capture my visions. I had never seen them before, but Crayola makes Fabric Crayons, that you can use on paper and iron on to a tee-shirt. This worked well in a hurry. :)
|My niece Adleigh Loves and Remembers|
Jake's papa's shirt
|Papa's shirt read I can only imagine...|
Papa, Jake and Jesus
Jake's Aunt Jackie's Shirt
Payton drew a picture of Batman on his shirt, with Jake beside him.. I just don't have it on my computer right now. I will upload it, it is absolutely precious! <3 Love my big boy, he's a great big brother.
We honored 320 babies who were lost too soon.
There were 1280 hurting family members in attendance.
The weather was about 80 degrees on Friday, Saturday at 12:30 when my family and I arrived at the church the temperature was 55 degrees. We were freezing,as the whole ceremony was outside!
|Of course I brought Jake's lamb with me to the ceremony.|
I love having it to snuggle with in hard times.
The cold weather took me back mentally to sitting by Jacob's graveside service in February. It was so very difficult.
We began the walk being led by a troop of firefigthers from the Dallas area who play bagpipes. The one in white is the daddy of precious baby girl named Hadley who is in Heaven with our babies.
MEND gave each family of an angel an angel ornament, as their babies' name was called we hung them in a tree together. Payton just had to hang ours up himself.
Before our balloon release, Nicole Sponberg, founder of Selah, and sister in law to author Angie Smith, spoke about the loss of her son to SIDS at 3 months old. She also sang several beautiful songs. I was so incredibly blessed by this one named 'Home'.
|My mother's note to Jakey <3|
|Jake's big brother's note to him in Heaven|
|Papa's note to Jake|
|Mommy's note to Jake|
This is probably not even a third of the balloons released Saturday, as they were let go at all different times. My mind was blown by the amount of people affected by baby loss when it's represented in balloons.