Thankful

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It's approaching Thanksgiving, and many people whom I am friends with on Facebook are posting things they are thankful for everyday as statuses.  This gave me the idea to post here, what moments I am thankful for to have had with Jacob, or things I'm thankful for now, while grieving.
 
 
Today I am thankful for the Five Months 3 Weeks and 5 Days I held Jake close to my heart and for the two sacred times I held him in my arms outside my body.
 
I am thankful for the wonderful Nursing staff and doctors who worked tirelessly to keep Jake and I comfortable in the 21 days  I was hospitalized.
 
I am incredibly thankful for my supportive family who has shown me continuous love since Jake passed away.
 
I am thankful for the new gentleman the Lord has placed in my life who is not afraid to acknowledge Jake's life and death and his significance in my life.  He willingly listens when I am sad, and looks at pictures of my sweet baby with me, and has even went to the cemetery with me.  I don't think he realizes how special these gestures are. <3
 
I am thankful for the many friends who talk openly about Jake with me, whether you are blogging mommy friends, or whether I know you in person. 
 
I am incredibly thankful for the photographs of Jake that I have, along with his footprints and other small memorabilia.

I am thankful for the lessons I've learned since losing Jake.  I have learned that life is more precious than one would think.  Although I knew you're not promised a tomorrow, I never imagined myself as someone who would experience the death of a child.  . . I learned a new type of compassion for others.
 
I am thankful for the few photos of Jake and the other memorabilia I have.  Life would be awfully lonely, having nothing but a headstone to visit by a tiny grave site.  I love still being able to see Jake through pictures, and feel the imprints of his tiny footsies.
 
I am thankful for music that eases my mind and soul.
 
 I am thankful for time by myself at night to sit and reflect on the past 9 months.

I am especially thankful for the Lord's promise of eternal life that came with my salvation.  I know one day I will see my sweet, precious , second - born son in Heaven again one day!
 
These are just a few of the many things I am thankful for, even amongst tragedy.
 

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  1. AmyNovember 13, 2012 at 8:52 AM

    I love your new blog look!! And thank you always for your sweet comments on my blog. Even though our lives were completely turned upside down earlier this year, we still have lots to be thankful for. Even though I miss Wiley so much and wish more than anything he was here, I am SO thankful for him and the time I got to spend with him and the pictures I have of him! And like you said, VERY thankful for the promise of being with our sweet boys again!

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    1. JessicaNovember 17, 2012 at 11:11 AM

      Amy I am so glad you like the new look of my blog. The background and header are a product of my own curiosity. I created both of them on my own, with a few online tutorials, and a night by myself. :) Thank you so much for stopping by my blog and saying hello. . . I always love to see my friends. I am very thankful to have people like you who understand what it is like to lose a baby.

      Have a great weekend!

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