Flowers and a dragonfly

Yesterday I was in town picking up a couple of things for the house, when I saw this sweet little Dragonfly on a hook.  I immediately thought of Jake and thought this would be sweet hanging on the fence in front of his tiny little grave.  So, I bought it. :o)

 

Today I drove out to the cemetery to take it to him.  Everyone else was busy doing their own thing, so I went by myself.  Normally, when I go the cemetery I'm sad and cry a lot.  Today I felt a great peace, just driving out there...  I had my radio on my favorite christian station and as I got close and was pulling in the song "Praise you In this Storm" by Casting Crowns was on.  I turned up and just sang.

I got out and walked to my son's grave and put his little dragonfly on the fence, and moved it a couple of times until I found the spot where I liked it the most.  I put it down low, close to him. :o)

Once I placed his dragonfly,  I sat down in the grass beside my baby boy and talked awhile... I know he can probably hear me from anywhere, but I try and talk to him when I'm at the cemetery.  I told him I brought him a dragonfly and how I would go pick him some flowers, since the ones Payton had picked the last time we were there were wilted. 

 

Beside the church and cemetery there is a pretty big field... as it's way out in the country. It is so pretty and peaceful.  I picked Jake a whole handful of flowers.  There were Bluebonnets, Indian paintbrushes and  also some pretty yellow,pink, white and purple wildflowers.  They were beautiful. 

This is what my handful of flowers looked like before I took it to his little grave.

This picture is of the pretty flowers upon my babies grave. <3

While I was there, a lady and her kids whom I've known forever, came to visit her husband who passed away not long ago.  They brought balloons to release for him, just like we do for Jake.  It was good to see someone else and to feel like I am not alone in loss.  After a good chat, I said goodbye to my baby boy and headed back to the car I'd left running. I opened my car door and was immediately comforted by music again.  On the radio, in God's perfect timing was Matthew West's "Strong Enough".  I sat in awe of the Lord and sang and thought of how thankful I am to have a loving Lord.  Although, I have my bad days... I am thankful for knowing my sweet boy and for my savior who promised he'd be with me through everything.   Have a Great Sunday Afternoon everyone!